rainy day

Today started out super promising. Everything was going well, I got everything done, made my husband feel loved and awesome.
Now I sit at the computer with a twisted right hand, a little bit of sad, a husband who is not so charming and happy as he was earlier, and it started raining after all the cool spring day was swallowed up by dark clouds.
I know it won't stay gloomy; it's not even really that dark. After the warm happy this feels like a snow ball in the face.

Turns out that Jesse and I will be in Wichita Falls for around 4 months for the next part of his training and I've already got the ok to visit my pals at O.C! Yay!
We'll be out of here and off the net until we get all set up in Texas. Until that day comes, blessings and peace to your hearts, minds, and souls.

sharp pointies

No pictures because of borrowed internet. However, at least I can get information out to you guys.
Today was somewhat eventful. I found out that some language learning programs are migraines in a package, if Tricare cooperates the hospital wont, and that Jesse's training will be in 4 or 5 places during the next year. To add a shiny read cherry to the top of information overload Jesse is teaching me how to sharpen knives and I rented the cartoon series Gatchaman; I used to watch it when I was little, 'bout 6 or 7? (whenever mom and dad got cable when we lived in Clifton).
The Base Library computers have something against Facebook. So I'm really glad for my Blog right now.
Today is Chance's birthday, I'm sad that I can't be there. I hope it's wonderful for him.
~Me

Alive... for now

I'm comming to you from the free internet that can be found at a base library. Yay!
Jesse and I are alive, no car accidents, flat tires, sudden explosions, or amushes by the landscape to speak of. It was actually a super boring trip minus the time we spend with Family and Friends along the way.
Jesse finds out today what 'could possibly' happen to us next. [sarcasm] I just loooove not knowing where I'm going to be sleeping three days from the present. [/sarcasm]
Anyhoooo, I'll be sure to give an update on that ASAP.

Oh and I got lost in the MedGroup building. It's almost as bad as calling a bank's 800 number. Computers everywhere for you to sign in or up or down or your organs away: Everywhere. Living human being who can assist you in finding the Gynocology front desk and maybe answer a few questions: Nowhere in sight. Then I got uncomfortable with my own awkwardness and the sounds of sick people so I left without getting any information. So I'm going to call their help line later and figure out how to do a T-con (telephone consult) with someone. ....Yeah....
Later Days.

Before the long dark silence

As some of you have already been informed, I am moving yet again. Where, why, how, and when are all good questions. I'll answer them in kind: South Carolina, because Jesse's training is rerouting, in a car with a trailer, on Monday.
So before I disappeared from the net for an indeterminate amount of time I thought I'd put up the last documented, hodge-podge, bits of my short stint in Spokane.



This is what happens when the wife gets sick...
















I like to watch Jesse do/make stuff (like the trailer) through the window.



Jesse broke my favorite wooden spoon while trying to get the trailer wheels ready to stick onto the trailer. (T^T)

Mawwage is what bwrings us togevah today from Angharad on Vimeo.

Learning Curve

Learning to live with one new person 24/7 is more difficult than 2 or more. It's kinda odd, but I really think it's true. The mindset is different; and you can trade off your attentions and time so you don't get 'sick' of anyone.

Or at least that's what I've come to believe in the last 5 months.

I've been married for 5 1/2 months and have spent round about 3 of those without my husband being around every day. Now that he's home more we're learning how to deal with each other... or something... the mind meld has only just begun *random maniacal laughter and lightning bolts*

Some days are tougher than others; days like today wear me out completely. Both of us are trying so hard to make the other person happy that we end up flattening the object of our affection with the passionate and strong intentions. Up, down, up again, down again, loop de loop de Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! Get me off this crazy thing!
At least I'm reassured by everyone, bar none, that this part is the hardest. If it got twice as hard I think I'd turn Jesse's church shirt into a white flag and go out Lady of Shalott style all epic and slightly emo.

In reality though I have no reason to complain or bemoan or whatever it is I'm doing here. I have food, warm and clean place to live, running water, a husband who loves me and has the desire to take care of me and make me happy, I'm returning to a state resembling healthy and we have overabundant provisions enough to refer to them merely as 'crap'.
So, I dust off and hang up the over used phrase "It's all good".

Recent Discoveries

I'm discovering new things about myself and those around me everyday, I hope to continue this trend well into my old age.

However, most recently I've discovered 4 very important things.
1. There is no safe place from which to scream out your every emotion just to clear your inner slate; someone somewhere is bound to hear you and tell someone else.
2. I have more pet peeves than I thought.
3. There is a time limit for everything, even if no one is aware of it.
4. For every Today there is a Tomorrow that turns it into a Yesterday in which all the dramas that consumed you are now silly and unimportant and that little thing you didn't pay attention to at the time is revealed as a turning point.

My Hubbie's Hands

For those of you who are curious here are a few of the better pictures of Jesse's FAM hands.