Monday, February 15, 2010
Learning to live with one new person 24/7 is more difficult than 2 or more. It's kinda odd, but I really think it's true. The mindset is different; and you can trade off your attentions and time so you don't get 'sick' of anyone.
Or at least that's what I've come to believe in the last 5 months.
I've been married for 5 1/2 months and have spent round about 3 of those without my husband being around every day. Now that he's home more we're learning how to deal with each other... or something... the mind meld has only just begun *random maniacal laughter and lightning bolts*
Some days are tougher than others; days like today wear me out completely. Both of us are trying so hard to make the other person happy that we end up flattening the object of our affection with the passionate and strong intentions. Up, down, up again, down again, loop de loop de Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! Get me off this crazy thing!
At least I'm reassured by everyone, bar none, that this part is the hardest. If it got twice as hard I think I'd turn Jesse's church shirt into a white flag and go out Lady of Shalott style all epic and slightly emo.
In reality though I have no reason to complain or bemoan or whatever it is I'm doing here. I have food, warm and clean place to live, running water, a husband who loves me and has the desire to take care of me and make me happy, I'm returning to a state resembling healthy and we have overabundant provisions enough to refer to them merely as 'crap'.
So, I dust off and hang up the over used phrase "It's all good".